Girls

Girls will be girls, gossips are inevitable. Heard some bad story about HER from my friend (and also her's), let's name her 'Pizza' (randomly giving name). All I can say that, the one talking is worst in a way. Talking about someone else weakness, doesn't make you better. Talking bad things about others, doesn't make you any better. This is not a personal attack on 'Pizza', because she owe me money. But when someone said to me 'borrow' it means 'borrow', which you have to return it back. I'm very loose on this, but you spending money on other things, which you clearly remember that you owe me RM10+. RM10 not a lot but I ain't rich, student loan ain't enough to cover another 2/3 semester here. I am considering 'Pizza' is not a slut. But please, I can't deny when it's starting to get true.

Enough talking about 'Pizza', I wanna talk about 'her'. To 'HER' thanks for the constant care for an introvert that have almost nothing to offer. Hope to see you soon.

She's friendly

She's friendly, a little bit crazy but nice and kind. We once have a conversation, yet it seems that we are distant. I may not yet have a grasp of this thing called life, but I realized she's friendly and nothing special about that conversation.

She's the one with sister like caring, hope that I don't screw things up again. I may be the awkward and weird introvert person in the corner of a room, but with those characteristics I pray to god that I wont be a burden to anyone. And still in hope that no one will get annoyed with me.

I am not anti-social, I am not avoiding conversation, I have short string of words in my head, but the notion of people may not get me is partially the issue for me not saying them out loud.

I guess I should not in search of friends as people search for love, because friends that would be there for me in good and bad moments is better than vast numbers of acquaintance. Nonetheless, I shouldn't locked up in my room.

Whatever happens, happens

Its not a lie, but i am telling everyone, in form of tweeting n written in my fb status, that i would join this event. Its a camping trip, sounds nice and fun but, nothing is without friends right? So the point of me telling everyone is so that i would actually go, even though I am going alone and doesn't know a single being in the camp.

So whatever happens, happens...its a 3 days 2 nights camp..reason of joining, put me in a lion cage, and all i can think of is surviving. So trying to get comfortable with people and try to talk to people face to face rather than conversing in social networking sites.

In short, trying to nurture my self-esteem. People relate it with looks, maybe i do believe in that, because i think i m ugly. So now learning how to have self-esteem, next step is balancing in so that i would not be too over (which, most probably not that soon)

Zee Avi - The Book Of Morris Johnson

Artist : Zee Avi
Title : The Book Of Morris Johnson
Album : Ghostbird (2011)



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